Oct 15, 2022Film Response: Hommage (2022)Director: Shin Su-won Cast: Lee Jung-eun, Kwon Hae-hyo Being on the cusp of middle age is an experience — professionally, I’m still fairly young at 39. But growing older as a creative, especially as a woman, provides its own unique set of struggles. Initially, I had planned to watch a…Film3 min readFilm3 min read
Sep 21, 2022South Korea Diaries, Day 1: ContextSo what exactly am I doing? USC’s Center on Public Diplomacy created the U.S.-South Korea NextGen Creative Fellowship as a way to connect the creative sectors in the US and South Korea supported by the Korea Foundation. The official overview states: This program intends to engage the creative sector in…South Korea4 min readSouth Korea4 min read
Sep 19, 2022South Korea Diaries, Day Zero: PreludeIt honestly didn’t feel real until I stepped on the flight to Incheon. About a month ago, I got a random email from my long time friend Colin. “Hey, I know you’re super busy but is there any chance you are interested in going to South Korea?” Uh, yeah. Timing…Travel5 min readTravel5 min read
Sep 15, 2021Teaching Myself to Dream (Again)I think I’ve forgotten how to live. How to feel. How to be happy. …2 min read2 min read
Dec 28, 2020Cultivating Dreams and NightmaresI’ve been trying to remember how to write lately. It’s a little strange to say that considering most of my professional career revolved around me writing and producing multiple piece per day. But somewhere, in the aftermath of everything, I lost my voice. …Writing5 min readWriting5 min read
Jul 19, 2016Morning Pages — 16Morning Pages — 16 I’ve been thinking about the nature of marriage a lot lately. Maybe it’s weathering that first big emotional storm, or maybe it’s because so many of my friends seem to be longing for something they don’t have, in marriages or still single. I re-read “Marriage is…Morning Pages4 min readMorning Pages4 min read
Jul 17, 2016Morning Pages — 15Morning Pages — 15 There is so much noise in my head. I hate doing morning pages because I am always late — it reminds me of how far the space between my ideal self and my real self actually is. The ideal Toya is a minimalist with a clean…Writing1 min readWriting1 min read
Jul 16, 2016Afternoon Pages — 14Afternoon Pages — 14 I almost feel like my old self again. After a crushingly brutal week at work (there were so many demands flying, so many late nights and early mornings, that the days and times were starting to blur) I finally managed to take a few hours off…Morning Pages2 min readMorning Pages2 min read
Jul 14, 2016Morning Pages — 13.5I wrote some morning pages in the Lyft on the way to work yesterday and never finished them. As soon as I got to work, it was nonstop, which is as per usual these days. If I have a free second, I play Pokemon Go. It’s been a bad week, and I don’t have any headspace. I’ll try these again tomorrow.1 min read1 min read
Jul 12, 2016Morning Pages — 13So it’s been a few days since the last morning pages. Which really brings home something I’ve been struggling with — it’s damn hard to be a creator without a lot of personal time or space. Holding time sacred really relies on a few different things. …Life3 min readLife3 min read
